As I look at that the beautiful ocean the warm tropical breeze hits my face, in my ear the phone is ringing, my son Adam answers, “Hello? Mom are you at the airport yet?”

“No just leaving the resort, any word?”

“No, change. But that is good is what they are telling us”

“My flight was suppose to leave at 7:15 am, however, it’s been delayed to 9:00am, I’ll call as soon as I get to the airport.”

“What does that mean for the connecting flights?” Adam sounding somewhat desperate.

“I don’t know, honey but I know that God will work it out. Hang in there I’m on my way.”

“I will Mom. I got it handled, it’s going to be ok until you get it. I’ll handle it.”

“I know you will baby. I love you, I’ve got to go now. Call soon.”

First Flight out of Mexico finally left at 10 am. I sometime think that praying is the only way to calm my nerves, but right now I’m not sure God is hearing me and I really don’t understand how can all this work towards my good and His glory?

Arrived in Atlanta at 130 pm missed the connecting flight! Went through customs without any issues and went to the ticket counter to see if they could help me not knowing how I’m going to get on the next plane, just know God has to do something I have to get to Indy!

“Good Afternoon, Ma’am, welcome to Atlanta How may I help you?”

“Good Afternoon, I have just gotten back from Mexico and I’ve missed my connecting flights due to weather, my son has been in an accident and is on life support I really need to get back as soon as possible is there anything you can do to help me?”

“Oh I’m so sorry, Let me see what I can do to help you?”

“Thank you so very much”

” Looks like we have a flight leaving in an hour do you think you can make that?”

“Yes ma’am I think I can. You have no idea how much I appreciate this.”

“Good luck with your son Ma’am’

“Thank you”

As I walk away, I feel relief, but I’m still numb, now to find the gate and get on that plane!

The timer starts!

Find the gate…….got through security …….find the right gate………

Finally I can breathe………NOT!!!! The storm that I left in Mexico has now arrived in Atlanta! Dear God REALLY???? Flight delay for 1 hour. Now I won’t be leaving until 3 pm.

2:45pm Fight to Indianapolis from Atlanta…….delayed! Seriously!? 60 minutes…..the rain is so heavy I can’t see the plane! It’s not more than 50 yards in front of me!

Sitting in the Atlanta airport waiting on this flight I begin to feel the gravity of insignificance of existence. There are hundreds of people around you with probably various of situations going on but no one but God knows what I’m going through. I want to scream to the world that my son may be dying I have to go, yet I must realize that the God of the universe is in complete control. I must realize that some how this will work out, right?

4:00 pm delayed again…..4:30 delayed……5:00 delayed…..I’m either going to lose my mind or I choose to believe that God is in control. I put my music in my ears….Jeremy Camp… I Still Believe! I begin to realize that only God is in control. Only God can love my son more than I do and that right now He is the only one that understands what I am going through. When His son was on the cross how much pain must of He felt? He couldn’t look at Him, He was alone? Is this what it felt like? I just want to get on the plane and go to my children.